It’s been a good and unpleasant experience revisiting this place and see my real home, the ugly things I am used to, the people I grew up with, and the old life which taught me how to be fierce and strong.
Looking back, I remember how it felt to be a part of this picture. Ten years ago I was just a little boy with just a simple dream, and that was to get away from this place. I never denied the truth about the life I had but I knew that I was meant for something better, the reason why I didn’t let my environment corrupt me.
Fulfilling that dream, however, wasn’t easy. I have just realized how difficult it is to be the breadwinner of my family. And I regret those days I have wasted and those opportunities that passed me by because of my selfishness.
Now, I am more aware that I am not getting any younger, and so are my parents. It’s just about time for me to take life seriously. “Hindi cute ang buhay, ” as my mother always tells me.