For the sake of honesty, I would just like to inform you, readers, that I’ve been smoking again. It’s such a shame, I know, because I have mentioned two months ago in one of my post that I would be quitting. I was able to abstain for a month, at least, but being surrounded by smokers while suffering from abstinence broke me.
Now, it’s getting worst. Before, only one stick per break in the office was all that I can handle. But now, I haven’t finished a stick yet and I’m craving for more. This is also one my worst traits. When I regress, I fall ten times back. But I can’t let my self lose for I know that my asthma (a childhood sickness we were able to cure) might attack again any time.
As a desperate measure for quitting I asked one of my team mates to give me some nicotine patches that I can try. I haven’t used this method before, so I am not sure if it really works. If it does, good; if not, maybe I’ll just buy a rope and hang my self under a tree.