The first two days of my training with my new company made me realize two things which I think can help me get through the Year 2011 alive. First, I should never let anyone bring me down. Second, if I want to get away from something, the only way should not be getting out but moving up.
I have always believed that I was a strong person. That is because I don’t easily give up whenever something bad happens, or if people go against me. What I didn’t know was that everything was building up inside me: when the time comes that I can no longer hold it, I just suddenly break down and squander things. This was the reason why I left my job.
At first, I was convinced that everything was going to be okay. My coach didn’t like me. My team-mates thought I was weird. I didn’t care. I did my job, performed well, when I suddenly realized how miserable and hopeless I was. Depression easily does that to me and I cannot just sit back and let it control me. I have to do something before the whole thing happens again before I even start my new career.
Being a call center agent, I admit, is the only thing I can do for now to survive. And I don’t see giving up my job three times in a row to have done me any good. I think it will be better if I would find my self a shark to chase me, motivate me to swim forward and not to drown.
What kind of shark will it be, then? I am yet to find out.