My holidays will surely be uneventful. Not that I really care but I just can’t feel anything towards the upcoming Christmas Day. While most of the people and bloggers I know are already making their own grand plans to spend the holidays, here I am still wondering what to do with my idle time and where to go next because I haven’t found myself a job yet.
But despite all the things that happened, I can still say that the year 2010 has been good to me. It was I who failed to do what I needed to do. Thus, my plans all disappeared, leaving only memories of better days. That is why I am really thankful that I still got this blog to keep me sane, my readers to lighten me up, and my best friend—my companion, my lover, my reason for still believing that I am not hopeless.
I don’t know what the coming year will bring to me. All I know is that I am going to fix myself first, so that I will have a clearer picture of what’s ahead of me, the things I really want to achieve, and to be sure of every action that I will do. Having reached 21 really scares me. I am not getting any younger so I think I should take things more seriously.
One of the things I will do is to speak less and spend more time writing. I want to study again next year after saving up. And the best time to practice is now while I still have the drive. I will also be firmer with my opinions and what I think is right. Being too good to other people, based on my experience, is not really a good idea. I have always been having petty arguments with my Bestfriend because of his brutal frankness with me and with other people, especially when he’s in the right position. And I guess he’s just right. Life is unfair. Be fierce or you’ll be the prey of other people.
I learned a lot of lessons this year. That is why even if I can’t consider Christmas Holiday a big deal, I still feel excited about the coming year of 2011. From this point, I still have eight days to wait until New Year. Eight days to hold on before I finally leave my failures behind because everything is going to be alright.